It’s been a few weeks since I’ve written here and I do want to explain that I’ve relocated to a place where writing has been historically easier (kidding that’s not a thing) where I only have one job, which is to write, and I seem to have come out the other side of whatever the fuck the last few years were, so this bodes well for this newsletter.
The root is patriarchy. Denying that this is Mother Earth, but rather pillaging it and where the destruction of it is the point. Highly recommend “Female Erasure” ed by Ruth Barrett. Mostly about the issues of women’s rights being compromised by the TRA army, but it also has great nuggets about the state of our world and the earliest religions - pre modern era.
Also, I wait at the hotel parking lot across the street from the Burbank airport. Welcome back! :D <3
Holly, I love your writing & insights. I also am a huge fan of Quitted, listened to every episode. You did NOT come across unlikable, just someone trying to find her way out of a shitstorm. I can’t wait for your next book!
Thank you for pointing out the dead bodies. I work in energy and constantly think about the "dead bodies" that exist in the form of everyone who doesn't have access to what Americans do. Each of these individuals has contributed their global resources (and will bear the brunt of climate change) to develop the world and concentrate wealth in a way unfathomable. Because of these dead bodies, it is a luxury to a) have an education, b) to drink a latte, c) to count on groceries being at the store, d) to fuel our transport (e- and CH4, it's still energy and coal is still growing despite this "green revolution" --hint, the rest of the world need AC too!), e) and it is even a luxury to debate the rights of women. I'm deeply saddened at this understanding of where we are at and fearful of what's to come for my children. The European energy crisis is reaching a head and the impacts are unknown in magnitude, from fertilizer plant shutdowns to industry curtailments. We will learn as this unfolds.
Thank you for trying to help that man. I will do what I can to contribute emissions free power to the grid. I don't have answers to those protestors turning a blind eye to the shit nor to those seeking change yet not grasping the sheer amount of energy and consumption they personally require to keep themselves this society afloat, let alone raise others.
Holly, this so hit home for me. I am in search of that root for myself also lately. Trying to find what the root of the issue is, that is inside me, not outside me. The way we treat people tells a lot about a person, and I just think if everyone focused on getting themselves better the world would be better. Thank you so much for sharing, it feels like a relief not feel alone in this feeling.
You’re not the cunt in this tale. There is an unkindness, an anger that has taken over this country, maybe this world. You simply reacted to the macho aggression thrown in your direction. We’re all jus trying to find our way thru this dystopia. Be kinder to yourself, I say, in my own arrogance - oh, and the by way, I think you’re amazing and beautiful, and I love u.
Here for all of this. Feeling so much of it in my own ways. And not feeling much at all in some ways, too, so I resonate deeply with that sense of it all boiling over when our bodies finally let us be with the overwhelming amount of shit there is to be with. Here for you letting yourself and your needs/desires/wants take up more space. And here for the truth you graciously share in this space -- thank you.
I know there’s a lot going on and also- I’d blame the onesie. I spent so long trying to be a onesie woman and when I finally let that dream go I was much happier. I didn’t have a (front or back) wedgie anymore and I could deal with life better. That’s me though.
Here for this and loved everything about Quitted too. I’d listen to more but also think quitting - Quitted - is perfect.
Holly - so great to hear from you again after everything....you've got this. Will miss your fabulous podcasts, but I definitely 'get it.' I hope that, after you get settled back into your new space in CA, that you will begin to discover some peace, as you allow yourself to live in the liminal space of not pursuing anything in particular and just 'being.' Lots of love and admiration for the fact that you're openly sharing your journey. These are difficult times and we're all trying to figure out how to both be aware of the troubles, while also maintaining our sanity.
I really just want to say that for me, the way you showed up on the podcast was perfect. It’s really always been about your authenticity as you likely know. I’m sorry for the people in the cheap seats taking cheap shots and someone who was trying to help. I’ll see you here. Love your work.
I had to get off at the Civic Center BART station every day for years when I worked at SF Ballet so I stepped over a lot of bodies. It was heartbreaking every time and I felt so so guilty. Then I went off to my job asking donors for money for the ballet and some of them were giving 250k a year so the juxtaposition was intense. I didn't know what to do about it then. I don't know what to do about it now but I started volunteering at a meal for the unhoused twice a month a few years back and that has helped me a bit. xo
I got literal goosebumps when I read "I didn’t need to go because Roe was overturned, but I thought that I should be that affected so I lied and said yes, I was upset, I needed to get off the phone."
Grown ass adult man with 23+years of sobriety and I could admit to "I didn’t need to _________, but I thought that I should ___________ so I lied and said ________, _________________" about twice a week (day?)
I am really glad the men were there to yell at you and confuse you further. I would have revved the engine and acted crazy. Just cause.
The root is patriarchy. Denying that this is Mother Earth, but rather pillaging it and where the destruction of it is the point. Highly recommend “Female Erasure” ed by Ruth Barrett. Mostly about the issues of women’s rights being compromised by the TRA army, but it also has great nuggets about the state of our world and the earliest religions - pre modern era.
Also, I wait at the hotel parking lot across the street from the Burbank airport. Welcome back! :D <3
Holly, I love your writing & insights. I also am a huge fan of Quitted, listened to every episode. You did NOT come across unlikable, just someone trying to find her way out of a shitstorm. I can’t wait for your next book!
Thank you for pointing out the dead bodies. I work in energy and constantly think about the "dead bodies" that exist in the form of everyone who doesn't have access to what Americans do. Each of these individuals has contributed their global resources (and will bear the brunt of climate change) to develop the world and concentrate wealth in a way unfathomable. Because of these dead bodies, it is a luxury to a) have an education, b) to drink a latte, c) to count on groceries being at the store, d) to fuel our transport (e- and CH4, it's still energy and coal is still growing despite this "green revolution" --hint, the rest of the world need AC too!), e) and it is even a luxury to debate the rights of women. I'm deeply saddened at this understanding of where we are at and fearful of what's to come for my children. The European energy crisis is reaching a head and the impacts are unknown in magnitude, from fertilizer plant shutdowns to industry curtailments. We will learn as this unfolds.
Thank you for trying to help that man. I will do what I can to contribute emissions free power to the grid. I don't have answers to those protestors turning a blind eye to the shit nor to those seeking change yet not grasping the sheer amount of energy and consumption they personally require to keep themselves this society afloat, let alone raise others.
I would totally dig getting stuck next to you at a party!
Holly, this so hit home for me. I am in search of that root for myself also lately. Trying to find what the root of the issue is, that is inside me, not outside me. The way we treat people tells a lot about a person, and I just think if everyone focused on getting themselves better the world would be better. Thank you so much for sharing, it feels like a relief not feel alone in this feeling.
Love you and everything about this post.
You’re not the cunt in this tale. There is an unkindness, an anger that has taken over this country, maybe this world. You simply reacted to the macho aggression thrown in your direction. We’re all jus trying to find our way thru this dystopia. Be kinder to yourself, I say, in my own arrogance - oh, and the by way, I think you’re amazing and beautiful, and I love u.
Here for all of this. Feeling so much of it in my own ways. And not feeling much at all in some ways, too, so I resonate deeply with that sense of it all boiling over when our bodies finally let us be with the overwhelming amount of shit there is to be with. Here for you letting yourself and your needs/desires/wants take up more space. And here for the truth you graciously share in this space -- thank you.
You relax and inspire me.
Thanks for helping me breathe a little deeper today
A-fucking-men. *claps* (As in amen, not literally a man, fuck those dudes.)
Yes to this Burbank airport story!
I know there’s a lot going on and also- I’d blame the onesie. I spent so long trying to be a onesie woman and when I finally let that dream go I was much happier. I didn’t have a (front or back) wedgie anymore and I could deal with life better. That’s me though.
Here for this and loved everything about Quitted too. I’d listen to more but also think quitting - Quitted - is perfect.
Thank you!
Holly - so great to hear from you again after everything....you've got this. Will miss your fabulous podcasts, but I definitely 'get it.' I hope that, after you get settled back into your new space in CA, that you will begin to discover some peace, as you allow yourself to live in the liminal space of not pursuing anything in particular and just 'being.' Lots of love and admiration for the fact that you're openly sharing your journey. These are difficult times and we're all trying to figure out how to both be aware of the troubles, while also maintaining our sanity.
I really just want to say that for me, the way you showed up on the podcast was perfect. It’s really always been about your authenticity as you likely know. I’m sorry for the people in the cheap seats taking cheap shots and someone who was trying to help. I’ll see you here. Love your work.
I had to get off at the Civic Center BART station every day for years when I worked at SF Ballet so I stepped over a lot of bodies. It was heartbreaking every time and I felt so so guilty. Then I went off to my job asking donors for money for the ballet and some of them were giving 250k a year so the juxtaposition was intense. I didn't know what to do about it then. I don't know what to do about it now but I started volunteering at a meal for the unhoused twice a month a few years back and that has helped me a bit. xo
I got literal goosebumps when I read "I didn’t need to go because Roe was overturned, but I thought that I should be that affected so I lied and said yes, I was upset, I needed to get off the phone."
Grown ass adult man with 23+years of sobriety and I could admit to "I didn’t need to _________, but I thought that I should ___________ so I lied and said ________, _________________" about twice a week (day?)